Generally, I'm not one to get very angry. But in the past 24 hours I'm sure I've never realized the ugly truth about people in such a short amount of time. Life is so much more complicated than we realize sometimes. Sometimes people just turn into complete idiots and right now I'm definitely at a loss in trying to figure them out so-- I just may not try too.
"Friends"
It blows my mind how over night friends can turn into complete idiots! I'm finally realizing that some people that I thought were great friends are the exact opposite. I've been pushing away all the wrong people and now I'm stuck-- at least until college. High school is just full of dumb bitches that need to keep they're mouths shut. Friends should be happy for each other. Friends should be there for each other. But then our friend jealousy comes into play and she's a real bitch! Basically I'm tired of giving so much and not receiving any "friendship" in return. Another thing that tears girls apart are they're big mouths. I've been holding my tongue but obvisouly I can only do that so long. So congrats dumb high school girls-- you've just released the BITCH.
Happiness
Apparently too many people can only find happiness from bringing others down. It's a very elementary thing to do, so let's try growing up shall we? There's this song called "Garden Party" it says, "you can't please everyone so you've got to please yourself." I'm tired of trying to please everyone, it doesn't work and it's obviously not worth it. I have myself to keep happy and that's hard enough sometimes. That is definitely one of my weaknesses and it really must stop. In the past 24 hours I've realized people aren't worth pleasing because they are impossible!
It's crazy how life is sometimes. I feel like my whole life is like a book with a lot of chapters. Some of the chapters are really long and feel like they are never going to end and some really short. Some days it feels like a lot of things and people just decided to change over night. Like for some crazy reason things just happen. This summer was definitely a whole new chapter. People have shocked me with their stupid and bad choices, people have upset me, people have surprised me, people have left and people have came and brightened my whole world. I believe everything happens for a reason but sometimes those things are hard to accept-- but we have to either way.
You just can't trust anyone but yourself. People can be brutal. People can be completely wrong but won't believe a word you say. Some people just have to be right. Some people have to always win and be the best. Some believe they are awesome, but really they are full of shit. That's the ugly truth and it's never going to change. We all just have to accept that. Not everyone in life is pretty, just look around me and there's all the truth that you need.
Life as we know it, but what we don't know.. Welcome to my life as another person making there way back into reality from just going through the motions.
